Day 8. #30daybloggingchallenge

Write about something you struggle with.


I confess: I am afraid I am not good enough.

We’re getting personal today, it seems. I feel like writing always leaves me naked, vulnerable. It’s something about undressing one’s soul. When you read someone, if you can read between the lines, a blog post, a book, poetry – all of them break the walls of the writer.

Indeed, I think many people struggle with this issue, not only artists (though there is no doubt they do!). I am not afraid of failure, as I think we should see it as a lesson. You know, a kick in the ass we need, so we move forward.

In regards to my work, I think my “inner critic” is to be blamed. I feel like no matter how much I work, even if I progress, I am not good enough – and then there comes the sensation that I will never be. I am not satisfied with my writing, the final result. I exhaust myself and give 110% to improve. I put my heart, my mind, my everything I am still afraid it’s not enough. As if I could’ve done more. I look up to different writers, and I don’t compare myself to them because styles are different and unique, but I feel like I can’t transmit so much emotion, that I don’t have what it takes. I am afraid that people read my work and don’t feel anything. Being indifferent would hurt me more than if people would dislike what I am writing.

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Bored of Writing?!

Hello, guys! How’s your week going? I hope you like the posts on this blog.

Today I’m going to respond to a question that I’ve been asked a lot in my life, in particular by those who know me personally. The problem we’re talking about is: “Do you not get bored of writing?”

Till know, you might already know – and if you don’t, you’ll find out now – that I’m not only a blogger but also a writer. So I can see where this curiosity comes from. I write book, or blog posts or working as a freelancer in what concerns the writing sphere, and when I do none of that I usually read. My life revolves around words – whether literature or not.

(Mind you, I’m not that boring; I go out and have fun once in a while. Haha)

When people ask me this, I only tell them that I do not. I enjoy what I do, and I mean it. I fiercely adore what I do! No one forced me to write books or start a blog. It was my choice.

Writing is my passion.

I think that for those out there who don’t really know what it means to be so drawn to something that you cannot literally think about anything else I make no sense. For them, I seem to sink into literature; I’d rather say I dive into it. How could I ever get bored of something that make my life more beautiful, that makes it seem fuller? I couldn’t imagine myself doing anything else.

It’s like I have all these voices inside of my head that drive me to share their stories.

I do have writer’s block now and then, but I don’t let this affect me to the extent of not making me cease writing. If I don’t have an idea for the next chapter I find myself writing an article or some poetry, or fanfiction. Of course, I do other things like taking walks, dancing and chatting with friends, but that’s not what I want to pinpoint in this post. Since I’ve written my first novel, I haven’t once thought about quitting writing – and I’ve had my dark periods as anybody else. If anything those times made me a greater writer.

Boredom occurs when you do the same thing over and over again. Writing is different every time.

One chapter is not like the other. Each had its challenges and makes you struggle. But the satisfaction when you finished it is incommensurable. I would high-five myself every time I finish a chapter and tell myself I did a good job. It might not be my best chapter, but I managed to write it and it’s enough for me.

Writing is for persons who are determined.


Do you get easily bored of your hobbies or do you stick to it? Also, if you’re a blogger/writer – do you not get bored of writing?

Don’t Be Shy!

You might have already published something or you might still be on your way… No matter the situation, congratulations! Not many have the courage to take this path. Today, I’m going to get a little personal and talk about why you should not be shy when it comes to admitting that you’re a writer or talk about your book.

Believe it or not, although I’m a sociable and brave person, when I had to talk about my work with someone whom I knew, I instantly froze. It was not that I was ashamed, but I found it strange to talk about myself as an author, a writer. It felt uncomfortable. Should I know the persons, things only got worse. I didn’t want my friends or acquaintances to think I’m changed only because I managed to get my book in the market. I was afraid of being judged…

Talking about my books was just as hard. People would usually ask me “What’s it about?”, and I had to summarise it in a few lines. They would then, because of my anxiety and the brief talk, regard me uncanny and change the subject. Inside my heart, I was craving for letting others know what made me write a certain scene, or why did I start the book in the first place, but I was shy. Looking back in time, it’s not a big surprise since I was a teen author. Who does take seriously a fourteen-years-old girl?

It took me more than ten months to convince myself I should be very proud and not let the situation overwhelm me.

If you confront with something similar, know that you’re not alone. I’m not going to lie to you, the path won’t be easy, but you can overcome this feeling! Don’t be shy!

If you’re a newbie and still work on your book, don’t be afraid. You’re stronger than you can imagine.

There is no real secret which I can share with you. Everyone has to win this fight with his own forces in his very own way. We are different and respond uniquely to experience, but that’s a good thing. I wish there was something, but it’s not.

Believe in yourself! Don’t be shy! Don’t let anyone put you down, because working on a novel or publishing one is a big deal!